Wednesday, July 16, 2008


It's almost 3:00am, I should be asleep but I haven't been able to sleep at all. I'm dreading today with a passion. This will close another chapter of my life. I feel sick inside, seeing his body for the last time, I know it's just an empty house that could no longer contain the spirit but, when I look at him I want him to speak to me, I want more time to show him how much I love him. I know he's happy where he is and he wants me to be happy too but, I'm so very sad. I have a lump so thick in my throat I can hardly breathe, soon it will all be laid to rest. Lord you are the All Mighty you can do anything, Lord please help me, help me be strong, help me to stay focused on you and know that this is not the end because I know it's not the end but, I will miss him so. Lord I feel your presence and I know that you are with me, I just want to say, Thank you Jesus.